I’m Beautiful in Every Single Way, Who Could Bring Me Down?

Tonight, just like the others night. I'm still here. alone in my new home, new city, my new episode of my life. suddenly my brain bring me to the past. just like the movie, episode per episode. from one part to the others part of my life. so many things happen. so many people that i met. so many words that had been told. until now, until i've been here. still alive.

sudenly, i feel my heart being harder. wanna cry, but i don't know why. i remembered everything from my past. bad, good, sad, cry, laugh, love, friendship and everything. sometimes i feel lonely. being apart from my family. my friends, my city. sometimes being abandon, rejected, betrayed. sometimes i was think if i just like others. But i realised something. even the past that makes me here and makes me just like me now. i must learn to forgive and forget. i couldn't relied forever to the past. i must forget everything that must be forgotten. i must forgive everything that must be forgiven. time will cure my hurt. time will give me the answer. about what? why? who? where, etc.

no need to makes my self looked pathetics. no need to remembered the past. i must said Thanks God, that i'm been here. with everything that you give to me. because i believe "You" will give the best to me for all of aspect of my life. because You are the one who knows everything. because You are everything.

slowly, music on from my laptop. i love this song so much. because it's inspired me to be strong. to be optimistic. to believe with my self.

Goodbye my past. Goodbye my friend. goodbye my love
....

Beautiful -Shakira

Yeah yeah
Ohhh
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Oh no, oh
No matter what we do
No matter what we say
(No matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
(And everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(Sun will always, always shine)
But tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

I am beautiful (Beautiful)
No matter what they say (No matter what they say)
Words can't bring me down (I am beautiful)
I am beautiful (Beautiful)
In every single way (Every single way)
Words can't bring me down, oh no, oh
I am beautiful
No matter what they say (No matter what they say)
Words can't bring me down (I am beautiful)
I am beautiful
In every single way (Every single way)
Words can't bring me down, oh no, oh

I am beautiful
(No matter what they say)
Beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful, beautifulEvery day is so wonderful
Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed (No)

I am beautiful (Beautiful)
No matter what they say (No matter what they say)
Words can't bring me down (I am beautiful)
I am beautiful (Beautiful)
In every single way (Every single way)
Words can't bring me down, oh no, oh

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom, mmm
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
Is that the way it is?

I am beautiful (Beautiful)
No matter what they say (No matter what they say)
Words can't bring me down (I am beautiful)
I am beautiful (Beautiful)
In every single way (Every single way)
Words can't bring me down, oh no, oh

I am beautiful
Beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful, beautiful

Banjarmasin, 19 08 2009